WOW! It has been too long...

I sat here this evening catching up on emails when I realized I had friends with more than one blog who actually post EVERY DAY in their blogs. How awful I felt that such a great friend would help me get this blog up and going and I wasn't even using it. Sorry T.
I decided to turn a new leaf. My new goal will be to post at least once a month. If I can do more I will post once a week. I don't spend a lot of time on the computer as the Lord has convicted me of romancing my computer WAY more than I romance Him. My time with the Lord has been very sweet lately. I have had some wonderful talks and some amazing times in His word. What a faithful, endearing God I have. If you have not discovered God's deep love, the love you accept even though you cannot earn it. Even though you didn't deserve it. You should start asking Him to show it to you. It is pretty hard to swallow at first. Yes, I have always known God loved me...in my head. I knew that it was a great love. I even knew it was deep. But I really knew I didn't deserve it and really I wanted to just earn it. Of course this made it hard to look at when He showed it to me. It was like standing on the edge of the Grand Canyon and looking down. You get dizzy and feel a bit sick to your stomach. You begin to realize that looking over the edge with out a guard rail might not be such a good idea. Well, God's love is so much deeper and wider and dizzying to look at unless you have the guard rail complete trust in Him. Oh, I trusted God before but not in every area. I trusted that I was His, and that.....He heard me when I prayed and that.....He would....maybe not totally there...hum........as you can see I didn't fully trust Him. I trusted me more. Yup, I was my own god in many ways. Now, as I look down into His love cavern, I feel His arms wrap around me and hold me steady and I sigh...that "I am safe and loved" kind of sigh a tiny child gives it's mother or father as they let the last little bit of their day go and truly fall asleep. Knowing that their parent will not drop them and will safely put them to bed when the time comes.
Well, this isn't what I had planned to write about. I thought I would write about my weight loss journey and what God was doing in me there. Apparently that is for another time. Maybe I will blog TWO DAYS in a row!!!! Better be watching, you never know!
TTFN